Starve the fever, feed the cold

Have you ever heard of this theory?
When you're having fever, you should reduce food intake because eating creates heat and energy, and you don't want your temperature to go higher.
When you're having a cold, you should eat more, to keep your body warmer.

Now that I'm having a cold, i feel hungry easily.

damn the cold

Must have caught the chill while studying late into the night.
The yellow pill which i took this morning is darn powerful, knocked me out till I woke up at 4plus.

Exams sucks, make me sick and gives me acne outbreak.

How do you create job satisfaction?

Especially at bad times like these, you know job security is impossible, and seeking greener pastures might not be the best option.

What makes a better work environment? Other than great colleagues, what else is needed?
Am i not proactive with learning? Or am i restricted? What is there for me when the current 'tasks' are over? How else can I contribute? So many questions in my head, but no answers.

Am I thinking too much?

Just walk away

Walk Away

You've got your mother and your brother, every other
Under cover telling you what to say
You think I'm stupid
But the truth is, that it's Cupid
Baby, loving you has made me this way

So before you point your finger
Get your hands off of my trigger
You need to know this situations getting old
And now the more you talk, the less I can take

I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standing here
Hey,
Just walk away

I waited here for you like a kid waiting after school
So tell me how come you never showed
I gave you everything and never asked for anything
And look at me, I'm all alone
So before you start defending, baby
Stop all your pretending

I know you know I know
So what's the point in being so,
"Let's get this show on the road today"

I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standing here
Hey,
Just walk away

I want a love
I want a fire
To feel the burn
My desires
I want a man by my side
Not a boy who runs and hides
Are you going to fight for me
Die for me
Live and breathe for me
Do you care for me
Cause if you don't then just leave

I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standing here
Hey,
Just walk away

Test of faith

In life, bad things happen more often than good things. And we are always struggling to overcome these problems. But how can we sustain our faith and still look at them positively?
My gosh, things that are happening lately are really testing my faith.

My blood pressure is up and on the verge of boiling.

I need to manage.

Damsel in distress

Am really in distress.

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will.
When the road your trudging seems all up hill.
When funds are low and the debts are high.
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh.
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest, if you must... But don't you quit.

No, I'm not talented enough to compose this myself, I ripped off from the internet.

updates

It's da speech contest tomorrow...! But I am so unprepared, my speech is ready, but needs more editing, and I haven't got down to doing it while I'm typing this entry away.

My challenge is to memorise my speech. That's my weakness, something I really need to overcome for my future speeches. Win or lose, nevermind about it, it is just going to be an experience for me. How do I ever remember my experience on stage? Perhaps someone should video them, so I could laugh at myself after the whole thing.

I found something to cure my constant fatigue, CHICKEN ESSENCE!!! I bought a box of Chicken Essence with American Ginseng from Watsons, it really did perk me up! I was not that lethargic the next day even with very little sleep.... the stuff works well on me, hurray!

If you want to give me belated birthday presents, its not too late man! I need chicken essence!

I just want to sing

I love singing, and I want to better my singing skills. Don't think I want to spend a bomb on vocal lessons.

I want to start learning jazz and bossa nova perhaps... where do i start?

No time for shopping

I need to go shopping... the pastel pink dress for the bestie's wedding for being part of the sisters gang, birthday presents for the colleagues, props needed for the bestie's hen night.

No time even to do my laundry, and no time to shower my precious Joy. (She still showers, just that my sister has to do the job.)
Spend the whole day doing revision for the upcoming exams, and I really suck at accounting, spend 1 hour just to attempt 1 question on doing income statement and balance sheet. Cham lah!
I guess I have to plop myself at the airport next weekend to mug again. *Cry*

Can i get someone to takeover my shopping please.......... sobs.

Why are you so silly?

Someone send me flowers to my office, and signed off the card as my dog, JOY. -_-"
I verified with a few suspects including the ex-bf. He is in camp now doing his reservist, and denied sending anything.

Great work, mysterious person. Now there are questions in my head with no answers.

The pleasant surprise is beginning to irritate me.

Happy birthday to me

1 year older, 1 year wiser (hopefully), if only the appearance could stop getting older as well. Thank you everyone for their well wishes.

I feel loved. :)

Project 2 - Organise Your Speech

Dating Ideas 101

“Sigh……. So sian, it’s the weekend, don’t know where to go for pak tor, its always either watching movies or makan. We have finished watching all the movies in the cinema already! And I’m on diet lah…. Don’t want to eat out at restaurants, my tummy showing already!”Good evening Mr President, fellow toastmasters and guests. How often have we heard of our friends complaining to us that Singapore is too boring, and couples are always complaining that the dating life is boring too?! Fret not, let me, the guru here, to give you some ideas. I can assure you that after this session, you will walk away with some fresh ideas of what you can do over the weekend with your loved ones.

Singaporeans really like to eat, and every weekend, we can see all the restaurant chains crowded with diners. It is sometimes such a headache to eat out during the weekends. Sure, if you want to have romantic ambience, you could jolly well choose to eat at some expensive restaurants with dim lights and nice music playing in the background. But why pay top dollars for such commercial settings? You can recreate that romantic atmosphere at a lower cost!Why not have a romantic dinner by the sea? All you will need is a mat, some food that you take away from your favourite foodstall, be it the hainanese chicken rice or char kway tiao, a bottle of wine, disposable cups and a tealight candle. And voila! You are done! Head over to east coast park, choose a spot that is comfortable enough, and lay out your stuffs. You and your loved one can eat and drink and enjoy the seabreeze at the same time. Sounds even more romantic than eating at a restaurant right? After the dinner, both of you could walk along the seaside, holding hands together and enjoy the nature and the peaceful sound of the sea waves splashing on the shore.

Ladies, going on diet is really not the ideal way of losing weight. It is painful and ineffective. How could you ever resist the temptation of good food?! Why not choose a healthier lifestyle instead? Do some sports or outdoor activities that both you and your boyfriend will enjoy. One stone kills two birds. You get to lose some fats and also spend some time together with your partner. If you don’t know how to swim, get your boyfriend to teach you! Swimming is a good form of exercise. You get to wear sexy swimwear or bikini to show off to your boyfriend! Sentosa is a great place to hang out too! Plan a little picnic at one of the beaches and get some sun. You can either play Frisbee or just silly ball games in the water. When you are bored, you can also check out the beach hunks and babes and treat yourself to some eye candies. Sentosa has just revamped the Palawan beach which is made family-orientated. You and your boyfriend/girlfriend can join the children and play in the kids area to recollect your childhood memories! Even if you don’t like to get on the beach, sentosa offers a variety of other activities at the various tourists spots. Whats more that sentosa is now much more accessible with the newly constructed LRT system that connects from Vivocity.

My last suggestion is to learn something new together. Both of you could either take up a new foreign language, learn salsa dance, take up cooking classes, learn pottery or do some volunteer work together! If both of you take up a new language, you could communicate and practise with each other. If you enjoy cooking a nice meal for your man, you can get him to take up cooking classes together with you. So the next time, he can cook something nice for you too! Both of you can also contribute to society by doing volunteer work. It’s a meaningful activity and the time is well-spent. You and your boyfriend or girlfriend maybe very different in terms of personality. He may be crazy about sports, but you may hate it. She likes shopping, but you are just uninterested. A relationship is not just about communication, but also about doing things together. If the 2 of you have something in common, it will really help to improve the relationship. Try to learn and appreciate each other’s interest. If your boyfriend likes to play computer games, learn to play so you can compete with him. If your girlfriend likes to dance, get her to teach you so both of you can dance at home!

Singapore maybe small, activities maybe limited. But its really up to your creativity and efforts to come up with new ideas on how to spend quality and fun times together with your other half. If you truly enjoy spending time with your partner, I’m sure it doesn’t really matter what activity it is.

Singapore is not boring, it is Singaporeans themselves who are boring.

Project 1 - The Ice Breaker

The Life of a Gambler

Good evening Mdm President, fellow toastmasters, and guests.
Here is a million dollar question, is gambling good or bad?

I am so excited about the Integrated Resort that the Singapore government has decided to build, because it comes with a casino. I have to admit…. I am an avid gambler! [pause] I’m just kidding! The only gambling games that I knew how to play are Mahjong and Blackjack, and I only play them once a year, that is during the Chinese New Year. However, in one way or another, I still consider myself a gambler.

I am a high risk taker. I love to take chances, to take risks and to venture into something that maybe unfamiliar to me, but which has high potential of developing into something fantastic. Life is short, its too boring to be safe.When I was born, my parents probably took a risk by giving me a unique name --One which opens more doors for me. Whenever I met someone new, they would be so curious with my name that often, questions regarding my race would be asked.“Excuse me, are you a Malay?” Nope, I’m a Chinese.“Oh, then are you a Singaporean?” Yes I am. Great. Strangers whom I met for the first time would easily strike up a friendly conversation revolving my exotic name and my equally-exotic looks.

I was in the class of elitist the year I sat for my GCE ‘O’ levels. All my classmates were contending to which junior college they can qualify for. I was the only one who took the risk by deciding to go to a Polytechnic despite having fantastic results. Back then, I hated the stiff education system. I hate to read books and I am so lousy in memorizing. I knew the academic path is not something I would like to do, so I pick the technical way. I chose to study design because I thought that was my passion. I was good with colours and always had weird ideas.

When I was out in the society working, most of my friends were in fixed salary jobs. I was the only few who took the risk to enter the finance industry with a commission-based job. A lot of my friends were very discouraging, even my family members and relatives too. However, I have never regretted my decision as I learned a lot of things along the way. I met people from all walks of life and have heard of numerous stories that other people shared with me. I learned to handle difficult people with composure. I had also changed from a blunt and tactless person to be someone who is more sensitive towards other people’s feelings.The journey of this gamble I took as a financial planner has been nothing short of hard work and excitement. Even if at the end of the day, I decide to do a career switch, I knew I have walked away with a wealth of knowledge and skills.

Am I rebellious? I hardly think so, I just love to be unconventional.

For many years, I wasn’t able to swim at all. Thanks to a frightful near-death experience as a young kid that kept me away from all kinds of water-sports. It was only until I had to go on a holiday trip with my colleagues to Phuket last year that I forced myself to learn. Nope, I did not attend any swimming lessons with a coach. I self-taught myself by observing youtube videos on the internet and with lots of practice at the swimming pool.Come to think of it, it was another risk I took when I jumped into the sea in Phuket. You never knew if another Tsunami might hit or a great white shark might be lurking around the seawater waiting to gobble me up!I once heard of this quote from a friend :“Life is like being in a casino. There are many games for you to choose from, blackjack, poker, roulette and etc, just take your pick. Sometimes you win, and sometimes you lose.There are many routes we can choose to take, but sometimes it turn out well, sometimes it doesn’t.

So… is gambling good or bad? I say its good!

Toastmaster of the evening.

My toastmasters jouney

Many of my friends are aware that I am involved in toastmasters, but none of them know exactly what I am doing. This journey has been a fulfilling one, and also a challenging one. Thoughts of quitting often cross my mind when I couldn't fulfil my responsibilities, but somehow, I always managed to tell myself to persevere. It is amazing how I always stunned myself to do things that I wouldn't thought of doing.

I am not the most capable person, but I did the best that I could.

And so I am going to post the past project speeches that I have prepared on this blog here. Hopefully someone who is in search of an inspiration or idea on their speech would stumble upon this, found something useful, and adapt it for their own use. There are no copyrights to my speeches, feel free to take anything.

Job woes

At some point of time in life, or perhaps several times, you may encounter such problems with your job. To some, the job defines their life. While some define what the job should be. A friend of mine is at his crossroad, to leave or not to leave, and what's in stall for him? I saw the same dilemma in him that I was facing couple of years back. It felt kinda weird to see my own story acting out in somebody else'.

What do you want to see yourself doing 10 years from now? What's important to you? Money? Balance life? High life? Car? Job satisfaction? Pride? Luxurious goods?
There are so many things to list down, but ultimately, I believe there is one single force that pushes you.

Whatever it is, i believe in being happy. So my choice must make me happy.

Exercising my brain

I am crafting a speech now. Damn, I'm so rusty. If this speech is done in time, I'll use it for the Speech Contest.

Give me some brain power and creativity!

I'm injured all over

Its been such a long time since i went jogging. And its so rare that I have no classes on a Monday night, so off to the running tracks I went. I wanted to bring Joy with me, but decided not to since she is having her menses now. Running and dripping trails of blood is not a good idea.

I was off to a good start, even surprised myself that my knee injury didn't act up. Until 20 minutes later, something else act up. My hip started to be so painful that I had to stop. It was then did I remember how I got my hip injured -- the bad fall I had during my ski trip last year.

What a way to end my jog, with bad memories and bad injuries.

What's up with my Sunday?

Catch up with sleep. I'm a person who hardly nap, but today I broke my record by napping the whole day. Do you call that nap?

And now I worry I wouldn't be able to sleep at night.

The stupid headache refuse to go away, nothing can cure it. I can have headache the whole day long, its that bad.

The ex-bf has been texting me, and it has left me with much questions in my head.

"Have I burn the seoul photos for you? I remember I did."
"Nope. You didn't."
"Burn a copy? or shred?"
"Can burn a copy?"
"Possibly. It just seem a waste. Pretty good memories still."
"Thanks, if you don't mind the trouble."
"I'll be away for a month."

Few days later... he send over this. "Just in case. I'm really sorry for everything."

I didn't reply to that message. What the hell is "just in case"?
Whatever has caused him to turn from the anguish to the apologetic?

Interview with myself

Qn : If money is not an issue at all, what would I like to do?
Ans: I would like to travel alone and experience life in the simplest form. Going to less developed countries and help them in my own ways. Singapore is too fast paced, a break from all these crap would be nice!

Qn : If I can do something and change the world, what will it be?
Ans: Erase the technology of mobile phones. Pager should exist forever... I think when people live in the times of "xiang ka pager?", we tend to be more punctual and make efforts to meet our friends face-to-face. Numeric pagers should be good enough, no need to have too many words, short and to the point.

Qn : If I am left alone on a deserted island, who would you take to be with you?
Ans: My dog, Joy.

Qn : If I can have a special ability, what would it be?
And: To be able to talk to dogs. That way, I could communicate with Joy and know what's on her mind.

Done.

Done with projects, finally!

I'll probably have sometime to attend toastmaster chapter meetings this month, gonna do something about it.

This month is mugging month... and birthday month. If you understand Pisces, you would know, she don't need a gift. She would appreciate simple text messages, phone calls and companionships. Somehow, I dread that day because I'm gonna pass the criterion of being a 'mid-twenty'. But yet, I am happy to be growing older because with each passing day, I find myself ageing with more wisdom and more empowered with knowledge. I hate the feeling of stupidity.

Mugging month because exams will be coming real soon and since I haven't been diligent enough to listen attentively during my classes, I gotta do more catching up by self-reading. Feel free to bring your books and drag me all the way to changi airport. That is still quite the best place for mugging, until I find a better location.

Play hard.... work hard?

I can play hard, but work hard?
Spend my Sunday afternoon @ Karaoke with my friends, it was a much needed singing session. Singing my heart out always made me feel better, good workout for my lungs! And I finally found someone who sings better than T... really a darn good singer. Listening to him is a pleasure. Music itself is a healer, hearing a good singer makes double healing effects.
To top my day, I get to watch 'Marley and Me' with compliments from my friend's brother.

It's a good movie if you love dogs like me. If you don't like dogs, then maybe not...

Going back to work on my school project now, though I would very much want to sleep now. Since I played so hard today, I ought to work hard as well.

Good night.