Corporate World sucks

At times, I really hate myself when I had to stay back late in the office. There are tonnes of work to do, really. No doubt I enjoy being challenged with more responsibilities, I get burned out really fast. I am someone who needs work-life balance, I am someone who needs good people around me.

In a corporate world, everyone wears a mask to face one another. Sometimes, I too wear my mask. Yes, I said sometimes. I am fortunate that I can sometimes remove this mask with a certain few colleagues. But it gets very tiring to pretend.

I just submitted my CV to a company. One that I think would never respond to my CV, because I have zero experience in that industry. Honestly, I did it for fun. If they really were to call me up for an interview, I think I would struck lottery.

Planning a backpacking trip

My next big trip for 2011 is going to be....... *drums roll* SOUTH KOREA!

But instead of signing up for a tour package just like everyone else, I am going to do it the DIY style. It will be a trip of exploration of the nature and the slower towns and cities. I wanted to do a solo trip initially, but a girlfriend wants to explore Korea too, so now I will have a companion! It will be a good chance to test my Korean language abilities too. Tsk tsk.

Having headache with the itinerary!

Seeing the girlfriend and her married life

The girlfriend who used to party harder than me, always had more fun than me, settled down about 2 years ago after meeting her Mr Right. Her life changed dramatically, just like her dramatic personality. But this change is something that is normal and also noble. I had the chance to feel this change when I stayed over at her place because the husband was away. Seeing her going around with a big tummy and holding hands with her daughter, going out for dinner as if nothing much has changed. This woman is amazing. When I asked her how was married life, her answer was: It has ups and downs.

Life is never perfect, we all know this fact. Its about learning how to ride over the downtime and enjoy the moments of happier times. I am happy to see her enjoying every single moment with her beloved Natalie -- full of hugs and kisses and laughters, and sometimes exasperations, but its all fine. Tiffany is on the way soon, another joyful blessing. I look forward to another night with the girls. Perhaps the more I spend time with the little kids, the desire of finding my own Mr Right and start my own family would come. But right now, I just want to be selfish and enjoy the freedom of being single, and occasionally spending time with the children of my girlfriends.

Challenging or what?

Worklife has been super imbalanced these days, ever since some colleagues left. My share of responsibilities has seen a threefold growth. The job is getting challenging. For someone like me who likes to gek kiang and challenge myself, I should be goddam happy about it. But somehow, it feels empty to be challenging myself so hard and I don't get any kick out of this.

Something is lacking. Don't know what. Too tired to find out.

I lost my drive.

I need inspiration.

I'm taking a long hiatus on the part-time studies, am so afraid that I will lose steam.

I need holidays...

Thou Shalt not entertain the self-centered attention suckers

If the only things that you can do around me is to joke around, talk crap, and getting all my attention but not hearing what I have to say, then get lost. I can't stand self-centeredness, neither can I stand stupidity nor feigning stupid. Yes, I can't stand bimbos.

Get real around me you bitch.

Back to reality

KL, Hanoi, Hong Kong, Phuket. Holidaying is never enough. I still feel the urge to go holiday, but I guess for the rest of year, I have to work doubly hard and leave the travelling plans to next year.

I have been staying away from the blog for sometime, because I need to focus my energy on the tonnes of things I need to do.

Work work work, I'll switch into the workaholic mode till 31st December 2010.

I'll miss this side of me -- dreamy and happy.

Can’t sleep

Because I’m troubled. Why are human minds so complicated?