Tuesday, June 30, 2009

我是熊猫

没日没夜的赶课业,明天就逞上去了!Wooohoooo..... 亲爱的七月份。。。我要尽情的玩!韩语课要开始了,好兴奋!真希望我的天份到家。

快乐人生,亲手去创造,有让人难以掩饰的幸福感。快乐与不快乐,就在那一刹那的选择。常常得提醒自己,要乐观面对人生,因为要陷入misery是多么容易的一件事。

哇。。。我仿佛在为一首歌写词。

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Money

I am never a person who likes to work for money, the idea of it is like slavery. I would rather work for the sake of learning, building my network, and getting the experience.

But what do you do when money is not enough? I can't persuade my boss to give me a higher salary for now, I need to adjust my lifestyle. I learned what is delayed gratification.

什么是‘理财’?如果你不理财,财就不理你!It's time I take a closer look at my finances.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

The mundanes


Whose life is not filled with mundanes?

The mundanes help to make our lives more disciplined, abide to a certain pattern, make doing things more rhythmic, and to some of us, keeping it sane.

But other than mundane stuffs in life, I am happy with things that offset it once in a while. I don't enjoy 'problems' per se... but it is adversity that makes me stronger, trains my gut, up my survival skills and make me wiser.

What would I become if life is smooth sailing? I'd probably end up a worthless person.

The networking workshop I attended yesterday has once again proved to me that what I put myself through is the correct decision. Serving my due time is tough, but necessary.

Friday, June 26, 2009

List of things to do in July

  1. Play badminton
  2. Service my bicycle
  3. Start my Korean classes
  4. Meet up with Angel & Damus and gang
  5. Meet up with ah zhen
  6. Sing karaoke
  7. Go disko dancing
  8. Do my 1st advance project on persuasive speaking series
  9. Make cheesecake, I'll try the strawberry version this time.
  10. Revision for exams
Exiting July...

Thursday, June 25, 2009

rambling

I feel very relieved now that I am done with tests for this week. Finally pass my insurance paper and I feel I am more equipped with the knowledge I need for the new job.

I want to go out to play this weekend. I want to watch 'Transformer 2'. But if I go out, I will be rushing through the night for my 2 projects to be due. Maybe I should bring my laptop out to the airport again and finish up on 1 single day. Sounds good.

Met up with my friends for dinner today since I was at Suntec after my exam. Bumped into one friend after another, its a sign that I need to catch up with friends. I have been hiding~!

Geez..... my thoughts are all over the place.

I am curious, in the eyes of my friends, am I a humorous person?

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

For Little Charmaine

Someone passed this link to me, and I read. I hope I can spare a little help by spreading words here on my blog, and I hope you spread the word too. The mother needs all kind of help that she needs. Be strong Charmaine.

Feisty Char needs bullets to fight!

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Send an email to the future

I don't know if this really works, I discovered this cool site.

http://www.futureme.org/index.php

I send an email to myself, which would be send out to the future me 3 years later. It is a congratulatory email. I wonder.... 3 years from now, I probably would have forgotten about this and be so surprise to receive this email.

Wouldn't it be fun if we can send email to ourselves 10 years from now?

Aja Aja Aja

Test Test Test.... so many test. Wednesday HRM test, Thursday Comm GI test.... driving me crazy.

Someone just help me do my laundry while i mug... why can't my Mum help me.....

Lani-ssi.... Aja aja Hwaiting~!

Friday, June 19, 2009

This entry is all about my grumbles only... don't read

Just checked my results online, I ace the 2 modules that I dread most for the last semester, what a miracle. I don't want to be complacent... because it is a fact that I am more tired now than last semester. How am I going to keep up?

The demanding workload is slowly eating away my energy level. I just can't seem to be able to recharge fully at night. So the 'battery life' is getting weaker...

This weekend is 闭关修炼 for me. My HRM project just got thrown back because this lecturer has high expectations. Arrrghhhh... its major editing time. And I have to finish at least 70% of my marketing project so I don't need to rush through it. The only thing I'm happy about it is.... the subject matter is somewhat my forte.... analysing Smartphones. But just don't want to get too happy with it first. My retest for the Commercial GI paper is on Thursday, I need to study for it. Every resit of the exam means time and $$$ wasted. My room is messed up again because I don't have time and patience to keep it neat.... my books are all over the place. There are also tonnes of laundry and ironing to do. If i send everything to the dhobi to wash, the charges might be off my budget.
I also need to catch up with sleep.... and to squeeze in time for some exercise.

Like how much can i exactly squeeze into these 48 hrs of weekend?

Seriously, if I have the money... I would engage help for the things below.
  1. part-time maid to clean my room
  2. send all laundry to the dhobi
  3. errand boy to walk my dog thrice a week
  4. driver to send me to school, fetch me after school
  5. study mate to study with me and help me take notes in classes
I shall continue to daydream...

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Drug Allergy

Whenever you see a doctor, and they asked, 'Do you have any drug allergy?' I would wonder... how would I know? Why does Singapore not have a centralised database of past medical records? Is it that hard to maintain a DB like that?

I had a drug allergy reaction towards a type of antibiotic many years back. I wrote down the drug name on the appointment card with the clinic's address. It was not the clinic that I frequent because I was sick at work and had to see a doctor immediately. Later on, I lost the card and I lost the name too.

So everytime I was asked that question, I would tell the doctor this and he would say, this is not helping.

Last weekend, I had my 2nd drug allergy case. I was out with friends after work to have dinner and birthday celebrations. I left my workplace with a migraine... That migraine stuck to me throughout the dinner and I was getting very irritated by it. In most cases, I wouldn't have take any medication. But it was so bad I had to ask around if anyone had panadol to cure it. My friend gave me her paracetamol and told me the dosage is different as it contained muscle relaxant. I took it nonetheless. Little did I know, I am allergic to that.

My eyes became swollen and I felt like I've drank alcohol. The migraine was cured but I felt like I'm drunk on paracetamol.

It's funny.

This time round, I will remember to inform my family doctor the drug name so that my records are complete.

Monday, June 15, 2009

How do you know how much you love the person?

On the train ride home, my classmate just shared with me about her marriage life. How it is falling apart and the tough times she went through. My heart goes out to her.... it is not easy indeed.
Halfway through the conversation, I fell into deep thoughts.

How do you know how much you love the other person? Why some marriages worked out well but some didn't?

During the retreat, F taught me one thing on measuring my goal. So how do I measure love? Love is such an unexplainable feeling.
In the moment of silence with my classmate, I was deep in thoughts, thinking about this.

The only measurement that I could think of, is how much you can sacrifice for the person. The more you love a person, the more you would sacrifice for him/her. Only love has such powers and abilities.

We have watched enough of dramas on tv, they always show that. Dramatic, but real.

In fact, this measurement system also holds true in other instances of love. Parents love their children, so they would also sacrifice alot for their son and daughter. The list goes on.

Now I understand why I wasn't happy in the past relationship. It is not love, because both of us could not sacrifice anything for each other. It was a companionship more than a relationship.

Another valuable lesson learned.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Sometimes the dreams are so big, you wonder if its possible?

When will I be done with my studies? Not so soon...... not anywhere near at all. All I can do now... is to do my part to study well and hard, graduate with a paper in my hand, and then off I go. Where to? I have no idea yet. I want to go out and see the world, so I have to prepare myself well for the next 5 years. I have a strong desire to leave this country, i'm not sure why too. Perhaps the lifestyle here is really too stressful? Perhaps I can't find anything here that fits me?

Perhaps I'm just dreaming and it may not happen at all? That I might still be stuck on this little red dot, and be pulled back by my responsibilities as a daughter? I don't know...

I envy people who have found their calling. I can only see myself clearly in the next 5 years, beyond that is a blurred image. All the dreams that I have seemed too big and unrealistic at the moment. I don't know how to empower myself.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

人因梦想而伟大,我因梦想而累垮。有时候我得学会放慢脚步,深呼吸,松懈紧绷的精神。原来工作与学业要两者都监督的好是那么难的一件事。有时候会不经意的想到,为什么我走的路比别人难,比别人辛苦?还好我的意念强,虽然辛苦,但我会坚持。都已经26岁了,再不加把劲就来不及了。


辛苦了一番,该是我好好的扑充睡眠的时候。

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Life is short?

But what if the sentence is rephrased as...

Life is Only One Shot.

It means you could only have one chance in life, and that you better treasure it.
Perhaps I really believe in it, hence I always grab whatever opportunities that are thrown to me.

If I were to write a biography of myself, I think the book would be extremely interesting... and it would be a best-seller. Perhaps even such a silly remark could come true... if I really embark on writing it.

Sigh


My HRM project is going to be due this Wednesday. My group mate just emailed me her part and after one look at it, I thought I should just ignore her email and finish her portion by myself.

How would you feel if you put in efforts for it, but gets reject totally by me?
I cannot accept that standard of work.... because it concerns my grades. But I don't want to hurt the 'team spirit' as well.

Sigh.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

The baby season

How come I kept seeing newborn babies updates in my facebook? Or kept hearing news of friends getting pregnant?

My best pal just popped yesterday, a very cute and hyper baby girl. Natalie will grow up to be a beauty just like her Mum, just not the ah soh characteristics please.

I think i can count.... like 10 newborns within the last 2 months?

I think the bad economy really helps, people are staying home more to have sex and make babies! And I wonder.... if we could experience another baby boomers period?
Okay.... i'm just talking crap. That's because I am at the age where such events in life would be common and frequent. I have forgotten that I am already 26. Damn.

Friday, June 5, 2009

I'm sad, I failed my Commercial General Insurance paper. Its so tough I feel like crying.
My $90 goes down the drain. Gotta make sure I pass the next round~! Arrrgh...

ARRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH........
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...........................

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

I have a bad habit

That is..... i refuse to sleep until I feel like I'm totally drained. Some people love to sleep, and afternoon nap is a favourite past time. For me, that can hardly be a hobby. Sleeping to me is like wasting my youth away, and its something that you can do forever after you die. Weird logic huh? I am the only odd kid in my family. Everyone in my family wakes up late and nap alot, so much so that sometimes I feel my dog has succumbed to the sleeping bug in the household and is sleepy for most of the day, except when she smells food! I'll use my sister as an example to illustrate...

She holds a normal day job and works 9-6. As she is quite an introvert, she does not go out as much as I do. She comes home at abt 6plus, feed the dog, eat her dinner and then proceed to SLEEP from 7plus onwards. She would then wake up at about 10plus, watch some tv, surf the net and SLEEP again before midnight. Gosh..... she can really sleep. On the other hand, I have never tried that before, perhaps only when I'm sick. What's happening to me? Why am I the only one in the family that hate to sleep?

I sleep at about 2 am everyday, and only manage to get 4-5 hours of sleep. And I have been doing that for years. I am lucky that with such awful sleeping habits, I don't develop serious eyebags or get lines. But I am afraid all these problems might set in soon.... as age is catching up. I guess I have been drained enough.... and I ought to start sleeping early. Its hard to adjust the time but I just have to try.

Monday, June 1, 2009

Call me translator Lam

I think I am mad, I just signed up elementary Korean language classes with PA. Think of it as a small fee for a sneak preview to my multi-lingual ability.

Who knows.... if i'm good enough, I might consider attending Korean classes with a proper institution. And perhaps, I could be working as a translator / emcee / trainer in the future. Or I'll go to Korea and be a licensed tour guide, get my ass out of Singapore.

So many dreams.