Responsibilities

Isn't it a long word to spell? And its quite a mouthful word to pronounce with 6 syllabus. Responsibilities is indeed a heavy word. When I see "leadership", I see "responsibilities".

I wonder what pushes me to take up leadership roles?
In Soka, I took up the leadership role to strengthen my faith. It has been a few years, but I haven't seen myself growing and developing well in this role. Rather, it has become a chore for me. Because I am being responsible, I took it upon myself even though I am not that willing. And now it has become a chore.

At work, more responsibilities could be a double-edge sword. If I do well, it would increase the chances of promotion. But if it becomes so overwhelming that I am not able to cope, then it is pointless. If I am expected to lead, then I have to take on more responsibilities. And I have to produce results.

In school, the responsibility to do well and get good grades is something that I must do. I didn't study hard enough when I was younger. Now that I am older and trying to catch up with peers, it gets really tiring. Eversince I started my part-time studies, my health suffered. Lack of sleep, lack of social life, and lack of money. The cost of education really emptied out my savings, and put me in debts.

In the family, I get the most responsibilities by virtue of being the eldest child. I get the most of everything. Most scoldings, most freedom, most of the talented genes, most respect. But all these meant the family is most reliant on me. Sometimes I wonder, if I were to die suddenly, will they cope well?

I am not one who enjoys being a leader, yet in every aspect of my life, I have to be a leader.
TM has been a wonderful chapter of my life. But do I have that ability and capacity to take on more responsibilities? I have my reserves about it.

How to train a dragon?

This is the 1st movie I watched for year 2010, and hopefully more to come. Yes, I am sooo busy that I have no time for entertainment since the new year started.

Anyway, this movie was a great start and it is definitely worthy as a movie to re-watch or to buy the DVD for collection.

The movie is not just about how to train a Dragon, it also convey meaningful messages through the story. In the story, the main character Hiccup found out that Dragons don't behave like how the Vikings thought it to be. Dragons could be tamed, only if the person handling it does so with peace. But because every Viking was determined to kill the dragons whenever they saw one, the dragons became defensive and started to attack as well. Much like parenting, how children turn out to be, is actually a mirror reflection of the parents. I once witnessed a friend who was yelling at her son to stop screaming around the house, because the son was easily agitated and likes to shout when he is not happy. When I look at the way my friend shouts at her son, I realised the son was just a mirror reflection of herself. The son behaves exactly like how my friend did -- shouting.

In the movie, Stoik did not know how to communicate with his son, Hiccup. It was always one-sided as the father always thought that he was right and refused to listen to his son.Their relationship improved, but it only happened after a near-death experience for his son. And in real life, we often take people around us for granted, until something really bad happens before we start to appreciate them.

There are many interesting messages behind this movie, if you are able to interpret it. This is not just a simple cartoon. It is more than that.

Exams are over, huuu huuu!!!

Time to reward myself, time to take good care of myself. I've been neglecting myself too much and am in a desperate state to make good the damages.
Health and fitness, socialising, doing the things I like, continuing with the Korean language course that has been put on hiatus, reading books (not textbooks for now). All in all, I will have a whale of a time by packing up the calendar.

Bye Bye boring me.

Is it efficient to do overtime?

The March mayhem was just over, but April doesn't seem any better, despite the fact that it ought to be a slow month. I am given more responsibilities now, I wonder if it has anything to do with the not-too-bad appraisal. If it does, I sure hope the remuneration will be adjusted soon. Keeping my fingers crossed.

Back to the question, is it efficient to do overtime? No, not at all. My brain functions slower after a full 8 hours of non-stop working. Not to mention, I still have to find time for some revision after I got home. If eating large amounts of food over extended period will extend the size of stomach, I sure hope it does the same to my brain. I fed it with so much information everyday.

Gotta do something before OT becomes normalcy.  

Can't wait for my much deserved break

I just cleared one paper today. Relieved. One more paper next week and I can finally relax.
There's not much of interesting happenings in my life right not. Its all about work and school, peppered with occasional toastmaster and soka commitments. No time for movies, no time for friends, no time for yoga.

Whatever is going to happen to me? I am so boring.

KL, Hanoi, Phuket -- I just need a break and recharge, prepare myself for the next level of challenge in 2010.