Can’t sleep

Because I’m troubled. Why are human minds so complicated?

Eventful weekend

Whole of Saturday was spent preparing for the monthly discussion meeting. I was supposed to share a testimonial, but somehow I felt very resistent about it. It's a testimonial that I have never openly shared before and the thought of opening my heart to so many people just scares me. Eventually, I did and really hate myself for feeling so emotional over it. No matter how much I kept preparing myself mentally and even chant about it, the floodgate of tears just broke lose. That was the lowest point of my life, one that I never wanted to share with anyone else. But it was also the turning point of my faith. I guess the time has come for me to be more open about it.

Sunday was epic looking at the number of things I manage to accomplish. The cooking session was really all sweat and hardwork, despite the fact that it was fun. I cannot imagine myself becoming a housewife, sweating in the kitchen everyday. Even though I can cook and I like it, it can never be an everyday thing. Reached home feeling shagged, I still have to do the damn laundry. I should just marry a guy who owns laundry services business so I can stop doiong laundry for the rest of my life. This is really how much I hate it.
Went swimming too, to cool myself from the extremely warm weather. Now my whole body is aching and in limbo. I should be able to sleep real early today.

Exciting weeks ahead.
Hong Kong next weekend and Phuket after National Day. wooooo....

Losing my sanity

Horrible news last friday, have been dragging myself to work lately, and harbouring thoughts about taking MC or urgent leave. Its not healthy at all.

I think I'm feeling all stressed up, after just recovering from a real bad flu, which really slowed me down. I think i must go back to doing yoga no matter how little time i have. Need to destress.

Breathing some life

Yea, I think I've forgotten how to play for the past one year. Its always good to be able to chill out with pals and talk crap, crap that I'm able to appreciate and cracking up over some silly topics. Chilling out with people I love just makes life so much easier... they ain't self-centered who just constantly babbles about their own life, the flow of conversation was a mixture of everything. Really appreciate that. Cos I have met people who only talks about themselves, and I am getting ultra superly duperly sick of it. I cannot be bothered to confront it, I just treat them with cold shoulders. Afterall, we ain't the same type.

I need to get in touch with friends I love more often. I need to take the initiative!