Back to reality

KL, Hanoi, Hong Kong, Phuket. Holidaying is never enough. I still feel the urge to go holiday, but I guess for the rest of year, I have to work doubly hard and leave the travelling plans to next year.

I have been staying away from the blog for sometime, because I need to focus my energy on the tonnes of things I need to do.

Work work work, I'll switch into the workaholic mode till 31st December 2010.

I'll miss this side of me -- dreamy and happy.

Can’t sleep

Because I’m troubled. Why are human minds so complicated?

Eventful weekend

Whole of Saturday was spent preparing for the monthly discussion meeting. I was supposed to share a testimonial, but somehow I felt very resistent about it. It's a testimonial that I have never openly shared before and the thought of opening my heart to so many people just scares me. Eventually, I did and really hate myself for feeling so emotional over it. No matter how much I kept preparing myself mentally and even chant about it, the floodgate of tears just broke lose. That was the lowest point of my life, one that I never wanted to share with anyone else. But it was also the turning point of my faith. I guess the time has come for me to be more open about it.

Sunday was epic looking at the number of things I manage to accomplish. The cooking session was really all sweat and hardwork, despite the fact that it was fun. I cannot imagine myself becoming a housewife, sweating in the kitchen everyday. Even though I can cook and I like it, it can never be an everyday thing. Reached home feeling shagged, I still have to do the damn laundry. I should just marry a guy who owns laundry services business so I can stop doiong laundry for the rest of my life. This is really how much I hate it.
Went swimming too, to cool myself from the extremely warm weather. Now my whole body is aching and in limbo. I should be able to sleep real early today.

Exciting weeks ahead.
Hong Kong next weekend and Phuket after National Day. wooooo....

Losing my sanity

Horrible news last friday, have been dragging myself to work lately, and harbouring thoughts about taking MC or urgent leave. Its not healthy at all.

I think I'm feeling all stressed up, after just recovering from a real bad flu, which really slowed me down. I think i must go back to doing yoga no matter how little time i have. Need to destress.

Breathing some life

Yea, I think I've forgotten how to play for the past one year. Its always good to be able to chill out with pals and talk crap, crap that I'm able to appreciate and cracking up over some silly topics. Chilling out with people I love just makes life so much easier... they ain't self-centered who just constantly babbles about their own life, the flow of conversation was a mixture of everything. Really appreciate that. Cos I have met people who only talks about themselves, and I am getting ultra superly duperly sick of it. I cannot be bothered to confront it, I just treat them with cold shoulders. Afterall, we ain't the same type.

I need to get in touch with friends I love more often. I need to take the initiative!

old problems back to haunt me

My blog is growing spidey webs... but too bad, im here to grumble.

I am seriously over-worked, the gastiritis that stayed dormant for the past 8 years is acting up. Painful.

I don't know if its good news or bad news. I am told that I will need to help out with some new projects, and I am suppose to let go some work so I could work on those. It seems like an upgrade of jobscope... but everyone's hands are so full now, who do I relieve my work to?

Sometimes, I wonder if I am really that capable? Can I just slack a bit please?

Daydreaming again

I don't hate my job, but I definitely don't like it enough to want to do the same thing for the rest of my life. I have always been proud of the fact that I am one who seeks the balance, ie. work-life balance. But honestly, I am not balancing it well now. I stop having life for sometime and have devoted too much time at work. Or did I divert my attention from school work to work?

These days, I daydream about being my own boss. Startup capital, I don't have. Experience, I don't have. Knowledge, still lacking. Courage, sorry, no balls at the moment. Good business partners, hard to find one that clicks. But one thing is for sure, ideas come to me every now and then. If only I had all other things right, I could quit right away and be a budding entrepreneur.

Just let me quickly get over my education phase and clear all education debts. Argh!