Unloading one by one

Finally handed up the economics assignment today. What's next? 2 quizzes next week. And next? Financial accounting assignment. All these would de done by the end of this month, short month...because there are only 28 days. In between these schoolwork, I am managing my time with planning meetings and discussion meetings. I felt like i couldn't perform my roles well, given the limited time I have, all my efforts are diluted. The way I saw how I manage my commitments for toastmasters, I really want to shake my head. And whats more, I am getting so rusty without the practise of speaking.

The past week was crazy for me, as I count the number of deadlines coming up. Now that a couple of them is unloaded off my mind, I can finally breathe a bit. I seriously need to catch up with my studies. I am so far behind.... But whenever I looked at my FA text, I just wished to do something else. Debit credit debit credit, am so lost. I finally understand why I chose to go into Design field last time, because I hate figures. Its so strange that I am still in the Insurance industry. But I am going to be persistent, not giving up this time round, unlike the past. I have wasted far too much time.

And finally, I can start dieting. The CNY festive season made me pile on some weight!

Shagged

Time now is 4:10am. I just bathe and sitting down to check emails and blog this. Just came home from my classmate's place after finishing our Economics project. The final 10-20% editing will be done by me.

And a few hours later, at 1pm, I have to be up at Hougang Mall to do some shopping for the BBQ in the evening. After the BBQ, meeting friends for supper @ Serangoon Garden who came back all the way from Scotland for the CNY. I wonder with my lack of sleep and proper rest, how much longer can I last?

Sunday's gathering is cancelled, I am relieved! That free up some time for me to breathe a bit. Maybe I should postpone catching the movie with my friend too. Which means I have a little more time to do my TM chapter meeting planning plus the final editing of project.

See, no time to study. My thick thick textbook is brand new, shows how much I get to touch it.

Okay, time to sleep.

Up the stress level

I just realised I did not send out a very important email, which was still stuck inside my drafts folder, what the hell!!!!

I hope the BBQ can go on well, despite the lack of planning. This is suppose to be my project, but it seems now R is taking things into her hand and pushing the project forward. Without her initiative, think i might just die and flop the whole thing. Thank you so much R.

Someone please save me from my misery. Stress level is way too high now.

Study study study

I have no dates on V Day, with that little time on hand, it could be the perfect day for me to hide in some corner and mug. Where could be the perfect place for me to do my reading? Time to start asking around. Home is definitely NO NO, I cannot study at home!

Disappointing

What a mess I have created for this semester, my test results are definitely not ideal. My assignments are due in a week's time and its only...10% done.

What am i doing?

I am drowning. And sometimes I feel like throwing my handphone away with the calls and smses, so nobody could reach me, maybe I should even delete my email addresses, facebook a/c, laptops and all my gadgets. So I have the perfect reason for not replying anyone. Technology advantage is starting to become a disadvantage to me.

I forgot to bring my phone out today, and surprisingly, I don't feel uncomfortable at all! What could this mean?

A series of burn-a-big-hole-in-pocket events

Great, what a way to start the year.

First, vacuum cleaner spoiled, then the kitchen's and the masterbedroom toilet's tap leaked, and Joy just broke my Levis spectacle lens and frame by chewing it like its her own toy! The spectacles cost me more than $200 and its less than a year old... sob sob. Bye bye to my favourite spec.

Why do I feel so shitty?

I don't understand why I am feeling so shitty.
I have an empty space inside my heart, and that space seemed to be filled with nothing but sadness. Seeing other people happy with their SO makes me envious. The way they whispered, giggled and smiled.

Why am I not letting go of that past? Why am I so unhappy? Why am I angry? Why am I crying?